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I dnt usually write in my blog except if sth major happened,2day I was sitting in my room,depressed in someway,and then I search through the old cassette tapes,my dad's to be exact,and I found this tape for Dalida,this singer is one of my favorites,and then turned the tape to "7elwa ya baladee",I just kept listening to her sweet voice,and this music that always when i hear aI feel am on a boat on the nile,dnt know why!this brought this gr8 feelin of comfort,then my mind did this wierd turn,I thought abt the people I feel they care the most,and then I started riminiscing my childhood,the gr8est days ever,and then I though,I can make my current days to be the same,just changing attitude towards life ;)

THOUGHTS


never thought I would be depressed till I could reach havin thoughts abt death,havin almost a normal life,normal problems,it never occured to me how loosing some one close will affect me,k,I've seen movies when close people die how they act,but I was never the emotional type,I was known to be rational,even when I become sad,it's just a phase that passes by,hope this will continue shortly,hope I can handle it,cause I feel this is just the beginning of more....

GOSSIP...

"the best person to talk wt abt me ..is me!!!"
of course nobody understands this phrase,even if they did->"tanfeed shamel motakamel",even sometimes I do gossip,but after it I just think why I did so!,wt I got out of it except feelin guilty!!,even there's people who dnt consider their conscious,but its just not worth it at all!!the worst ba2a,that who people gossip abt sometimes he/she believes these words as if they dnt know themselves,and they start gossiping to!as if it havin an intention of revenge or sth,and it became this big loop,all people lost in it.kollo beyetkalem 3ala kollo..

"lama rabena waza3 el 3o2ool ,kol wa7ed 3agabo 3a2lo.we lama geh yewaza3 el arza2 .ma7adesh 3agabo rez2o".

dee makoola kontseme3taha in a movie,we ba3d el ba7s we el fa7s,3ereft en kol kelma men deeh sa7 geedan!kol el nas keda,mafeesh 7ad la yatabe3 el ka3da deeh,we bekeda men weghet nazaree,dee lazem teb2a "the rule of life".

!!!!!!!!!
sometimes when u talk or interact with others,u feel like u r out of their region,they speak a languwage u dnt understand,and act in a way u dnt believe in,but what if all the people just act in that way all in once???,is the problem in you or in the others,maybe I was livin in another world,thinkin that am right and all are wrong,or was I the right side!!

YoYO

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion–
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights–
Almost left behind
A suitcase of memories
Time after–

"time after time "-Eva cassidy

we've got a lot of memories ,each time we review them we hope to go back ,maybe some hope to erase it,but we must know that if these memories didnt happen,we wont be where we are now...